no fucking coward life...

grasp so many fucking skills, never put them into use..I m fucking wasting my life... 

Fire.

dont even think about that.

there is fucking fire inside of me.

thoguht

Man  even can not put a dick in a woman ,can put a dick into a career. I really doubt that.

night thinking

1. i dont want the tragedy happened on Jane same thing happened on K*Y.

2.Fucking Kong fu zi, so many depressed culture limitation.

3. Fucking my dad's bad influnce.

4.Fucking so called civilization, I dont need the fucking civilazation at all.

what i have but i need to perform out

3C

confidence 

courage

i dont know other one yet. will find it out.

愚蠢

今天和父亲沟通，没想到他还是这么难沟通。愚蠢。

不管一个人的年龄多大，愚蠢是很难改变的。

他一次次的重复着上面的话，有什么意义呢。我和他说下大雪了。反映怎么样呢。

我是不是也太自我了，是不是父亲的另外一个影子呢？

我有体谅过他吗。。。。

在天上的父阿，我真的不知道怎么办了。。。。

我要寻求你的面，求你把我的罪遮掩。

天哪，我妈妈为了这个婚姻做出了做么大的牺牲啊。妈妈老去做理疗，是不是不想和他在一起呢。

天上的父您能让他归向你吗？他的心坚硬如硬石。为何一个男人这么失败。

妈妈，我一定让你过上好的生活。

未来的老婆 我们一定会在基督的爱里面水乳交融，远离愚蠢。

我对于愚蠢的憎恨就像对于智慧的爱一样热烈。

feel good about myself

about the confidence.

Apparently ,in this school or anywhere else, I m not the suck ones.

I m one of the best of people. plan this belief in the root of myself.

zi xin dao wu chi.

that not confidence thing devastate myself too much, that not suppose to happen.

I m Tony Chu,one of son of god, and very good man.

Love myself first.